Why Hope is Worth Believing In | Kevin Rupp | Goalcast

Posted By on August 14, 2019


– Our daughter had fallen ill at school and apparently she was having a seizure. She was healthy, we had no
inkling of anything going on. She was rushed to the local hospital. They told her that they
found a lime sized tumor on the right side of her brain. He said they were gonna do
brain surgery the next morning. And that’s when another
doctor pulled us aside and said, your daughter probably
won’t live till morning. And then she went in for her
nine hours of brain surgery but she made it. And we thought we were
done, this was over. Until two days later and they told us, your daughter has glioblastoma
multiforme, brain cancer. Fatal nearly 100% of the
time within one year. Once again a doctor
pulled us aside and said make memories now. Before we knew it we were
at two years past diagnosis, Felicia kept on going, it was four years. Before we knew it we were
at five years past diagnosis which is a benchmark in cancer treatment and it was a celebration. She was cancer free and for five years she had kicked brain cancer’s butt. The little girl that could. That summer of her fifth
year, Felicia became ill. We thought it was the flu. So after a few weeks of
dealing with this flu, we had to take her back to Hershey. And there they told us,
Felicia has leukemia. So we were back at it. This was a struggle from the start. Something you don’t ever want to hear. Talk about your child
in the same sentences as ventilators, feeding tubes,
do not resuscitate orders. Felicia started to lose consciousness, sometimes 24 hours a day. And one night I couldn’t
sleep, and I went into the intensive care unit and
I quietly sat by her bed and I looked at her sleeping, and I thought what an incredible child, how lucky I have been to
be this child’s father. I told her how much we loved her, I told her how proud
we were of her battle, and I said to her, if the
angels are here for you, then it’s time to get going. And then she opened her eyes and she looked at me, and
she said I love you daddy. That’s the last thing,
she ever said to me. She took two more breaths
and she died in my arms. You hear the stories
of people that have had after death experiences and they say, they float above the bed
and they can look down on the scene and see what’s going on. So just in case I looked
up at corner of the room and I waved, I hope she saw me. Our daughter’s been gone for 16 years and people say to us still,
isn’t it time to move on and let the past be the past? Grief is forever, it doesn’t go away, it becomes a part of you. American novelist Anne Lamott said, hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and
try to do the right thing the dawn will come, you
wait and watch and work you don’t give up, all
I can do is love her, love the world, emulate her by living with daring spirit and joy, grief and love are conjoined, you don’t get one without the other. The reason we never heal is
because our love never dies and maybe the reason we never
heal is to keep hope alive.

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This article has 41 comments

  1. "The reason we never heal is because our love never dies and maybe the reason we never heal is to keep hope alive" – Kevin Rupp

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  2. You can heal your life. Let no one limit you. Doctors don't define you. I was told that I would be dead by 30 i'll be 37 in a few months. My parents were told at birth i'd be brain dead. I was born to help others. Iv'e coached 12,000 people believe in no limits.

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  3. It's very hard to accept when GOD snitches your love. I was also in the same boat when i had lost my youngest nephew , he was just 3 months old . Everyday , i miss him & I don't know where he has gone .

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  4. Let your daughter fly high with the Angels in the Sky…
    My condolences are with you and with your family
    #bestrong
    #all the way from India.

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  5. One of the best 🙁…. actually best out of the best 😭………..but very sad …I think she can made it at the end but she can't ……but she got the best father 😊…..and to goalcast you are the best

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  6. Grief and love are conjoined. The reason we never heal is because our love never dies❤️ 😭😭😭 this is all I need to hear, thank you for the speech! I lost my mom, dad and grandma now I know why I never healed is simply because i love them.

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  7. Salute to those people who go through so much pain and still think about others and share such stories so it can inspire others and ease the pain. How Devine is that 🙏.

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  8. Thank you for being so strong for your daughter and the courage to share this msg . My heart hurts for you . I too have suffered a loss to a rare Cancer , he’s my Son and it was 9 yrs ago this month . Godbless you and your family….

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  9. If you guys are having a hard time don't lose faith, don't lose hope, you are not alone. Those words are powerful. Your daughter was ready and she knew you were not losing hope!

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